Am i better off without you..

It's nearly one month, tht we not seen each other. How are you ? I hope youre leading a happy life, with the one tht you truly love, Amin-

Have you eaten ? Have you shave yr beard ? Lol. How's work ? 

Do you get enough sleep ? 

Seeing you updating status on facebook, commenting wit yr friends & else - make me felt like you're fine & doing great *without me. You see, i've been waiting & waiting fr yr presences. Maybe we will bump ourselves wit each other, maybe i might saw you so soo far away, the place tht you cant ever see me. Im waiting fr that time.

I miss you..

Activating facebook after 20 days leaving it, staring at the chatbox, hesitating, feeling regret's wit what i've done.

I'm drowning. Hardly breath whenever i felt like i'm not myself.

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i'm sorry

Rumahku Syurgaku

Ive never felt that this house are like heaven for me. Orang cakap bertuah jadi anak perempuan sorang, anak manja katanya. Hmph its not true at all. 

People wont ever understand, the reason i really want to get my ass out from this house. 

I felt like im a total stranger. 

I hate to say this, but i dislike my siblings.. 

Im gonna study hard, & left this house A.S.A.P. 

Eshpiyem & Career

Assalamualaikum ! Its been awhile ! Hhe ive been through such a tragic life lately. Im sorry for not updating about a few months (?). 

Actually, there's nothing to tell here. Im lazy as ever, chubby as ever,  brat as ever.

& hey, dont forget that im SINGLE as everrr.

In particullar, i do fallen' love wit 2-3 guys. Whoaa. No kidding.

But i think tht kind of love is not real at all.

If im in love with 1 guy, theres no way im gonna fall again with the 2nd guy right ?

So, the fact tht, im just playing around here, with not being serious, do something tht unthinkingly think.

Thts stupid. Me.

Im just lonely, itu je. Such a excuses.

Kay, lately ive been thinking about what im gonna be in the future. Like - i must have at least 2-3 things to aim right ? 

The first think i thought is, becoming a primary school teacher would be great. I love kids, but i easily get annoyed with them unless they do what i say, be cute & stop being so spoiled.

From my point of view, if i pampered them too much, theyll kick my ass like some kids from my area would do.

THATS SUCK.

The second one is, maybe i should just be a journalist, since i'm good at writing something. I love to read too. 

But just being a journalist, can it be eternal ? For someone like me ?

Ive been asking for peoples view, and they said tht - being a journalists doesnt suit me enough. Can i stand sayin & write bout what i don't feel like to write ? Can i stand the rules of writing ? No. The fact that - i want to write what i want, i want to choose my own articles, using my own way of perspectives, my own point of view toward the worlds. 

Hahaha im being too picky here. 

I was thinking bout entering UPSI , or maybe UM ? Hahaha even though it seems impossible ( my results was like something something ) 

But everyone has their own speciality. I have it too ( without realizing it ) 

This year gonna be the last year. The very last year where i could play around & being such problematic brat  at school. At least i have something to story to my grandchild now (lol)